Friday, August 03, 2007

Blog = BAD NEWS

i've figured that i'm an emotional person and it seems that i shld stop writing blogs. so today i announce my retirement. its not easy to have a blog. always having to explain myself about the things i write. its tiring, and today it seems i've upset somebody. and hence and so forth, i will announce to my retirement of writing blogs as of today. its no fun, when u cannot express yourself freely, i write because i want to, i write what's in my head. it doesn't necessarily have to apply to every aspect of my life, just certain parts. but i stop writing, because i've hurt the most important person to me. and that to me is a crime big enough to stop writing for good. so BYE BYE writing world. i'm just gonna stick to my accounting from now on!

Things I miss

Things people miss, its odd but its a reality in truth.
1. Putting ur Loved One to Bed.
2. Arguing about the most idiotic things.
3. Listening to your loved one Bitch abt another
4. Simply Listening to another person, rattle off and talk.
5. Getting scolded for having no Darn reaction to what they say.
6. Being Right for Once
7. actually someone who actually listens to what you have to say.
8. Having your loved one be your best friend
9. Being Close to Someone again
10. Being Given Respect

Weird how some stuff u wish never happened, and some stuff u always want consistency in. Its So Weird! i hate it, but its true

Thursday, August 02, 2007

ever felt?

Ever felt that u were only half the man u were suppose to be? ever wonder what wld happen if u just looked beyond the ordinary. i don't know, i keep waking up and thinking maybe today i'll be greater, today things will change. The procrastination of it all is that we're human. Dreams are this whole link missing from our lives, and no i'm not talking about those dreams that you have when u're asleep. but those u have for your life. if its so important to us, why do we keep letting ourselves down when it boils down to it.

Some say it might be you being lazy. some say that we dare not get out of the comfort zone. i say its a mixture of not knowing exactly what to hope for. Its this whole image where you can see, but can't connect the dots. to me its scary, call me "asian" and conservative. But that's what i see. its like going to bed, and dreaming, when u wake up u remember the end and you have no idea how that dream led up to it, u feel confused and frustrated trying to remember the other parts.

Basically, maybe i'm not what i am suppose to be when people look at me, or when people look deeper than skin deep. Am i suppose to be a shining star? prince charming or something better? i have no clue, its a mystery to me. i just wish i knew what to expect and what to become.