ever wondered?

ever wondered how would life turn out if you took a step back before you made a decision? or if how things would have worked out differently? we expect too much out of life honestly to be able to be truely satisfied with our decisions. funny aye? its like taking a step into the water, and regretting that you're foot is wet. something along that line. its so dumb! but we still think if things were different maybe we would be "less wet" or maybe we "should be all wet". its so weird, i wish some scientist could explain cause and effect better than simply the inbetween process being only a meer word called "reaction".

maybe just maybe, we are suppose to view things as how they are? being unhappy and unsatisfied about the world isn't such a bad thing. Think about it? that's why we now recycle and have this whole new "free Hugs" campaign. its because under the realisation that cause and effect can work to our advantage. But how about in a personel level? hmmmmm, if i wasn't studying accounting and property, would i truely be happy with being a cook and having no time to myself? i'm sitting here wondering and i can't make a decision. Sure i love to cook, but could i seriously do it for the REST of my life? to me its like a hobby, not really something i will ultimately enjoy as a job? or will i! ahhhh there i go again. i can't put my finger on things, maybe its inate in me to be a indecisive person. But i would sure like to think that i made the right decisions in life that leads me back here to where i am. where i am still asking question about myself. hmmmmm is there really a better outcome? or is it something within you that you think is important but at the realistic view of things. it might not be. i guess the age old question comes back into thought, is the grass truely greener on the other side? oh well, time will tell.

in exactly two mths, i will be travelling the lights of europe and enjoying the european lifestyle.i am kinda happy but dread the money i'm gonna spend. But hey, who doesn't like a holiday? i know i do!